Not Gonna Fall Away?

From this series of posts (Thanks The Eagle and Child for the reference!):

but in all my years of college, in all my years of being in a close friendship with her, i never became part of the world the church feared.
i was a part of her world, wrapped in love, acceptance, and loyalty.

"you can love her, but you can't be in her life" that's what the pastors said, that's what the people in the bible studies said.

during college i loved marie, unconditionally, i loved her because she was a beautiful person, who was my friend.
after i became a member of the salvation club, i loved the sinner, but hated the sin, and that just meant that i was not a good friend to her.
that simply meant, i backed away, and i became less and less christ like, the more and more i prayed, went to church, read the bible, and lead a bible study.
the less christ like i became.

and it was intoxicating, the attention, the questions of what i was telling her, how i was going to witness, and what a great story it would make. it was my drug, and i got my high every sunday.
i wanted to save her, i wanted the story, i wanted that notch in my belt.
i was a horrible friend to her.

[via And that has made all the difference]